post by::: ♥ºmY¯hEaRt^miNd-sOuLº♥
_assalamualaikum_
Hurm.. Lama tak post... Quite busy.. Sad.. Feel LONELY...
huhuhu...
Hurm... 2 3 arinih aku byk berfikir...Berfikir tentang "betulkah ape yang aku buat nih...?"
and i found this feeling.....
"Mungkin disebabkan KESEDIHAN, KESEORANGAN, aku membuat keputusan yang sungguh drastik...
DAYS GOES TO WEEKS...
WEEKS - YEARS..
Huh!!!
I AM TIRED!!! FED-UP!!
Tired and fed-up of being the one yang slalu beralah, yang selalu mengalah.. I'M TIREDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!! Paham tak???!!!!!
Sick of it!!! Tired of it!! It's hurt me, sayang....
After 3years, we've been together.. Hurm... It's hard for me to say that we r not born to be together.... To say that i don't want to live with you anymore... n... It's hard for me to say.. Break aje la...(huhuh... senang nya aku ckp...)
Till now i still hear your voice.. i still feel your touch... Miss your voice... Your touch... Your hug... Your kiss.. Your 'perfume uchuk2' tuh... BELIEVE ME SAYANG.. I REALLY MISS YOU... erm.. Tetiba teringat 1 lagu dat i penah nyanyi time dgn u...
"...THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME,
FOR BEING MY EYES,
WHEN I COULDN'T SEE,
FOR PARTING MY LIPS,
WHEN I COULDN'T BREATH,
THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME..
THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME.."
Sampai skg kalau i dgr lagu "APO KONO EH JANG?" sure nangis.. teringat ur staff nyanyi lagu tu utk kita coz i love that song.. (hahaha!!).. Hurm.. tu semua kenangan... Kenangan terindah (oopps.. nih tajuk lagu kan? huhuhu). Oh.. Miss to bake a cake on your birthday.. huhu..
Still remember..
*On your 30th birthday (22nd April 2008).... I baked a cake for you... (♥)Siap ader topping. hurm.. tapi u kene out-station.. Okay.. I buatkan kad birthday..(♥) Pagi2 i bangun prepare bahan untuk buat kek. Tengah hari i kelam kabut buat kan kad untuk u. Petang u blik i packed kan baju2 u.. Dalam bag i selitkan kek and kad.. AFTER 3DAYS::: U tak jamah langsung kek yang i bekal kan n baca kad i buatkan utk u.. And yang paling i terkilan is, you tak tau langsung sume tu ader dalam beg u.. (OMG!!!) But!! Ok.. I maafkan u.. coz i love you..(♥) huh!!!
*Untuk our anniversary tak payah nak ckp la.. 1st anniversary i atur utk ke melaka... hurm.. U taknak.. Coz nk celebrate birthday papa.. (Ok sayang..) (♥) 2nd anniversary, i atur utk smbut dekat penang, mama n papa xder umah. Pegi haji. But.. AGAIN!! U sibuk dengan umah sewa la.. nak make sure dorg kuar ari tuh la.. Hurm.. Padahal u ader adik lelaki yang leh wat kan sume tu.. Kenapa mesti u???!! Tapi seperti biasa.. (OK SAYANG!) (♥) Malam tu lepas dinner u terus cabut tinggalkan i kat kl. U lepak dgn kawan2.. Sampai pukul 7pg!! Dan i terkapai-kapai sorang2 dkt umah tunggu u utk celebrate our 2nd anniversary!! Thankyou sayang.. (♥) Tapi ape i wat.. SENYAP!! Ada i marah? NO!!! hurm.. 31st dec lepas.. I booking 1 tempat utk celebrate our anniversary buat kali terakhir.. cuma utk jadikan salah satu anniversary kita "sweet memoties".... Then apa jd???? AGAIN! And AGAIN! U 'DESTROY' kan jugak!! Sibuk dgn konvoi club moto u.. (OK FINE!) Ader i marah? NO!! I ckp.. "ok takperla.. Esok (1st jan), I tunggu dekat tempat pertama kali kita jumpa n kenal.. I pegi sana pkul 3.. I'm so excited!!!!!!! N i lupa.. hurm.. I msg u.. then.. u bls msg "KUALA KANGSAR". tu aje???!! Sedih, kecewa, i bodohnya i... don't know how to describe my feeling time tu..... Sampai rasa nak nangis, tapi TAK TERKELUAR AIR MATA!!! TOO MUCHHH!!!!! I balik rumah, tenangkan diri.. hurm....
SELEPAS SEMINGGU.... I've make my decision:::
I buangkan perasaan sayang dan rindu i dekat u...
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L.O.V.E (♥)
HATES L.O.V.E SOMETIMES!!!!
FUCK L.O.V.E SOMETIMES!!!
---sorry l.o.v.e---
:::THE L.O.V.E WE GIVE AWAY IS THE ONLY LOVE WE KEEP:::
So selepas semua nih.. I dah atur hidup yang baruu.. Not to worry so much bout my life now.. Back as a student.. a girl. erm.. Sebagai seorang pekerja dan juga seorang anak perempuan.. Siang kerja. kerja. keja.. Malam, sambung blaja balik.. Amik dip yang i dah tinggalkan utk sama dgn u dulu.. (owh..silly me!)...
Hurm... Semoga my 2009 resolutions and plans akan berjalan dgn lancar and i'm aming to achieve at least 80%!!! (buleh ke weyh??...)
~~aminnnnn.....~~
---A woman is like a teabag; you never know her strenght until you drop her in the hot water---
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